I got the call from the NY clinic and we are ready to go. We will be doing the FET later this month. My prescription has been called in and is ready for pickup.
I start the meds tonight and on Tuesday I go back to the local doctor for another ultrasound and more bloodwork. If that all looks okay then the transfer will be scheduled.
I am excited yet sad. For me this marks the beginning of really moving on. I know I'm not leaving Andrew and Kai yet it feels like it. I know they are gone. The thought of being pregnant again is thrilling and scary.
I realized in therapy today that I wished people would bring Andrew and Kai up a little more. Not harp on it or talk about them everytime but just every now and then say you were thinking about them. Sometimes it seems like they are only real to Andrew, myself and a few other family members who talk freely with me about them. I know people don't know what to say and that is fine. Even saying you don't know what to say but that you were thinking about them is a wonderful thing to say. I realize its just as hard for people who are around us as it is for us. For us Andrew and Kai are still very real and are a part of our everyday lives.
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