Just a Few More Days

My appointment this morning revealed that my follicles aren't quite ready yet. I am to stay on my stims for 2 more days. On Sunday night I take the last shot, a trigger shot, that will cause the eggs to mature. On Tuesday I will have the eggs retrieved. They are measuring 10 follicles so hopefully I will have at least 10 eggs. My estrogen levels are doubling every 2 days which is very good. My estrogen isn't as high as it was in January but I am growing less eggs this time. You can certainly tell that I am nearly a year older.

I was upset because I found out that the clinic is closed on Sundays. If I were to have a 5 day transfer like we did in January, it would be on Sunday. That means I have to either transfer on day 3 or 4. Day 3 embryos should be 8 cells and day 4 embryos begin compacting and are called morulas. Morulas are hard to grade because they are just a tight ball of cells, you can't really see the individual cells any longer. Grading is important because it lets you pick the best of the best. I have decided that since we will have fewer embryos this time it may not matter as much. I was also told that women of advanced maternal age often do well with transfers earlier than 5 days. Bottom line is I have no control over it and I have to trust the doctors and go with the flow.

This cycle has certainly been tougher than the one in January. I am cranky every day. My ovaries feel like tennis balls in my groin. I feel them every minute of every day. I am so ready to get the eggs out but I still have 3 more days.

I just have to keep my chin up and keep going. If we get a baby out of this I will never look back and it will all be forgotten. Hopefully this isn't all for nothing.